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I finished 172 Hours on the Moon! Sadly it fell apart some toward the end, when the author decided to start explaining everything. No! That is the point of cosmic horror! That is is mysterious and inexplicable and cannot be made sense of no matter what! Still worth reading, but that was disappointing, because it had been so properly scary up until then.

I sat down to finish it after spending a few hours vidding, and now I have done that and done reading and there are emails I need to send but oh how I don't want to. Plus sitting at the computer saps all my life force. My brain is trying to distract me from working on my book by frantically developing ideas for the next one. Very clever, brain. But it won't work >:( or okay, it probably will, but I'll know you're doing it to get out of actually writing.

For that matter, there's nonfiction books I need to read too, since if I don't get a teacher assistant job for this next year (and it is looking increasingly like I won't) I'll be spending most of my time volunteering at the science museum, and I need to know more than I know at present. Also there's nothing stopping me from going to the gym and using all the non-pool facilities. Or calling this local scuba/diving place I found online that seems to have high-end snorkels available, to replace my cheap one that keeps trying to drown me. Or getting started on completely overhauling my bedroom and making space for a semi-adult life. But that is all very hard to do for some reason.

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I am marathoning these old Friends episodes because they make me happy, because Rachel my beautiful queen and also Chandler my other beautiful queen, but man, I had completely forgotten how obsessed with gay panic this show was. Were all nineties sitcoms like that? With at least one "ha ha gay oh no!" joke in every single episode? Or alternately, "ha ha like gay but not!" or possibly just "ha ha, gay!" Like, I just grabbed a bunch of season two episodes at random (season five is filmed fanfic, nothing after that exists at all) based on my dim memories stirred by the Wikipedia summaries, and I swear every single one so far has had at least one moment like that. Three of them had entire plots about it. You'd think it was the actual topic of the show.

So I guess that's another way in which it made me happy, because despite all the backlash and all the crap and all the everything, we really have come a hell of a long way in less than twenty years, and that's pretty amazing. Also I thought maybe I might not laugh at the jokes anymore now that I'm used to proper intelligent sitcoms with no laugh tracks and quality writing, but I have choked on my own spittle from laughing too hard three times so far. To be fair this might be because I imprinted on these jokes many, many years ago. They're probably not actually that funny.

--also I have to say, looking at this show from my current perspective? I really want the fic where everyone except Ross has a sex pollen orgy. FANDOM WHAT HAVE YOU DONE.