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so literally the next day after i posted about how great i'm doing i had my first corona-related anxiety attack, and have since been alternately stress-vomiting and taking klonopin, and doing absolutely nothing else that i don't literally have to. so that's....fun. i did manage to do some online tutoring and make a little money but it really sucked bc the platform the company i work for uses doesn't work quite right and even when it does there are various problems.

i'm gonna try to start reading again, maybe ease into it by reading the witcher books, which are almost like fanfic (except obviously they're the literal opposite of fanfic, but i mean emotionally, for me). i'm terrified that if i go much longer without writing i won't be able to start again so HOPEFULLY i can do a little bit of that today. if i can stop thinking about how i'm absolutely definitely going to kill my parents by getting sick.