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Apr. 30th, 2019 11:33 amIS VIVIAN STILL ANGRY ABOUT THE MAGICIANS
You bet!
OKAY BUT WHAT ELSE IS GOING ON
I'm almost done with the official part of my student teaching--it ends Friday. Then I'm going to continue for a couple more weeks unofficially just bc I want to finish out the year, but it will be much lower-pressure. Also I'm only doing a lesson this week, the next two weeks are students finishing their final writing project, so all I have to actually prepare is part of the final exam. I'm really going to miss this...like, I continue to not feel remotely able to take on the job of being the sole classroom teacher, especially not in the district where I live, but I really, really like doing part of it. And I'm pretty good at it! The thing that's gonna suck about tutoring, at least at first, is that I'm going to be working with students at a much lower level, and while that's interesting it's not nearly as much fun to plan for bc for the most part you can't use real, interesting texts. I'm hoping after a few years when I feel more confident to join or start an independent tutoring business, which would presumably target higher-achieving students. Of course that will be one-on-one which is not as much fun as small groups, so it's a trade-off. I don't actually know how long a teacher certification lasts if you don't start teaching right away, I should.....probably look into that. --ok I just checked and you have to renew every 5 years, and to renew you have to do 150 hours of professional development per 5 years. So I definitely need to keep on top of that.
I'm just generally very uncomfortable planning in detail for the future bc I don't feel ready? I'm never going to feel ready, and part of that is true for everyone but part of it is that I'm disabled to an extent that there's absolutely no room for in society. There's a very, very marginal--but still defined--space for people who can't work, like at the very least a MENTAL space, a conception of self and a (limited) way forward. I'm not saying I'm jealous of that or anything, but it does seem a lot less uncertain, and I'm lucky enough that if I really couldn't work, my family would still support me. But I can! I just...can't do the 60 hour weeks that come with the first couple years of being a teacher, and I'm not at all sure I can do a 40 hour week. I suppose I will find out.
You bet!
OKAY BUT WHAT ELSE IS GOING ON
I'm almost done with the official part of my student teaching--it ends Friday. Then I'm going to continue for a couple more weeks unofficially just bc I want to finish out the year, but it will be much lower-pressure. Also I'm only doing a lesson this week, the next two weeks are students finishing their final writing project, so all I have to actually prepare is part of the final exam. I'm really going to miss this...like, I continue to not feel remotely able to take on the job of being the sole classroom teacher, especially not in the district where I live, but I really, really like doing part of it. And I'm pretty good at it! The thing that's gonna suck about tutoring, at least at first, is that I'm going to be working with students at a much lower level, and while that's interesting it's not nearly as much fun to plan for bc for the most part you can't use real, interesting texts. I'm hoping after a few years when I feel more confident to join or start an independent tutoring business, which would presumably target higher-achieving students. Of course that will be one-on-one which is not as much fun as small groups, so it's a trade-off. I don't actually know how long a teacher certification lasts if you don't start teaching right away, I should.....probably look into that. --ok I just checked and you have to renew every 5 years, and to renew you have to do 150 hours of professional development per 5 years. So I definitely need to keep on top of that.
I'm just generally very uncomfortable planning in detail for the future bc I don't feel ready? I'm never going to feel ready, and part of that is true for everyone but part of it is that I'm disabled to an extent that there's absolutely no room for in society. There's a very, very marginal--but still defined--space for people who can't work, like at the very least a MENTAL space, a conception of self and a (limited) way forward. I'm not saying I'm jealous of that or anything, but it does seem a lot less uncertain, and I'm lucky enough that if I really couldn't work, my family would still support me. But I can! I just...can't do the 60 hour weeks that come with the first couple years of being a teacher, and I'm not at all sure I can do a 40 hour week. I suppose I will find out.
