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May. 9th, 2012 06:12 pmWork was particularly awful today, so I wrote some fic in my head and immediately realized what my biggest problem is going to be when I actually write this down: I am TERRIBLE at technobabble, and terrible at writing from the POV of people who are really smart, way smarter than me. So of course I had to end up shipping two geniuses whose courtship consists almost entirely of science and snappy dialogue. This fic is going to be full of bracketed notes like [[think of something sciencey]] and [[replace with actual clever banter]].
god, I am just LOVING being in a fandom again. I haven't had anything this all-consuming since XMFC, and it does tend to derail my life a bit but it feels so good. I came back from lunch, heading upstairs for another four hours of bullshit, and I couldn't stop smiling because I'd been listening to my ipod in the car and engaging in my involuntary new fandom habit of trying to make every song match a character and/or pairing, even when it is patently ridiculous (it was my Ani DiFranco playlist so it was pretty much all ridiculous). And when things got really bad I kept pulling out the sex scene in my mind and elaborating on it some more. And tonight I am going to watch a bad movie, and then write down some dialogue, and probably never finish this story considering my track record, and it will all be so satisfying.
i'll probably even see the movie again this weekend, despite the fact that only about 1/3 of it do I really consider worth paying for again and the fact that I'll have to schedule bathroom breaks in the middle. but I want it BIG and SHINY and I want to see their lovely FACES. on the other hand, I also really want to see the Pirates! movie before it leaves the theaters, and I don't really have time for two movies this weekend. Hmmm.
--ALSO, I have just determined by reading other people's posts that the other fic I want most right now, aside from the one I'm trying to make, is the story--hopefully MANY stories--of how Natasha and Clint learn to be superheroes and real people after all those years as shadowy assassins. Saving people! In public! With friends! And team bonding that doesn't involve violence! Or, not only violence, also movie nights and post-battle snacks. I feel like they would have a significant adjustment period, especially Natasha, and I want the fic where they keep having to hide out from the rest of the team and huddle together and wonder what the fuck is happening to their lives, and how they can possibly be starting to kind of like it.
god, I am just LOVING being in a fandom again. I haven't had anything this all-consuming since XMFC, and it does tend to derail my life a bit but it feels so good. I came back from lunch, heading upstairs for another four hours of bullshit, and I couldn't stop smiling because I'd been listening to my ipod in the car and engaging in my involuntary new fandom habit of trying to make every song match a character and/or pairing, even when it is patently ridiculous (it was my Ani DiFranco playlist so it was pretty much all ridiculous). And when things got really bad I kept pulling out the sex scene in my mind and elaborating on it some more. And tonight I am going to watch a bad movie, and then write down some dialogue, and probably never finish this story considering my track record, and it will all be so satisfying.
i'll probably even see the movie again this weekend, despite the fact that only about 1/3 of it do I really consider worth paying for again and the fact that I'll have to schedule bathroom breaks in the middle. but I want it BIG and SHINY and I want to see their lovely FACES. on the other hand, I also really want to see the Pirates! movie before it leaves the theaters, and I don't really have time for two movies this weekend. Hmmm.
--ALSO, I have just determined by reading other people's posts that the other fic I want most right now, aside from the one I'm trying to make, is the story--hopefully MANY stories--of how Natasha and Clint learn to be superheroes and real people after all those years as shadowy assassins. Saving people! In public! With friends! And team bonding that doesn't involve violence! Or, not only violence, also movie nights and post-battle snacks. I feel like they would have a significant adjustment period, especially Natasha, and I want the fic where they keep having to hide out from the rest of the team and huddle together and wonder what the fuck is happening to their lives, and how they can possibly be starting to kind of like it.
