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further updates for those of you following my kink journey, which btw i deeply appreciate even though i never reply to comments: last night i tied someone up for the first time, and it was AMAZING and i immediately went home and changed my fetlife orientation to "switch." it was at rope class and the topic was not a specific tie but rather exploring sensations, and the feeling of satisfaction i got from hurting someone who wanted to be hurt was just--i can't even describe it. it made me feel so powerful and good and fulfilled, and she was so happy and giggling and gasping and i am so overwhelmed with how incredible it felt. today is a bad depression day and i am avoiding doing my therapy homework but last night was absolutely transcendent.