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so the margarita plan failed miserably, I ended up crying all over my mom about how my body is self-destructing at age 27 and I will never be able to take care of myself on my own ever ever ever, and now all I can deal with is Avengers porn involving ALL THE FEELS. If anyone has any recs for any m/m (besides Steve/Tony, not hitting the spot right now) or m/f/m, or other moresome combinations, full of sex involving all the melodramatic intense feels and maybe some crying, I could REALLY use them right now. I promise to share more squee and story ideas and other actual contributions tomorrow.

what I most most most want, thanks to an offhand comment in someone else's journal, is Thor/Loki, in that order, rough and angry and vicious and sad and then there is crying and an explosion of feelings. It could be post-Avengers, or sometime during Thor or with an AU ending or whatever. I should NOT want this because Loki isn't a woobie, he's a psychotic murderer who looks good when he's sad and I shouldn't be fetishizing his homicidal manpain. But the id needs what it needs. As long as it's reasonably well-written, I mean; the id can't be soothed unless it's convinced.

GOD WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. Less shameful desires--Steve/Clint/Natasha, everyone is traumatized and clinging and somehow getting through the night together. Tony/Bruce, friendship leading to sex (with or without Pepper; Tony/Pepper grossed me out SO HARD in Iron Man 2--that fucking movie--so I'm okay ignoring it) and the feelings during said sex are less obvious and melodramatic but just as intense, with Bruce--well, god, everything, stuff I'll get into tomorrow and other people have already said better--and also with Tony finding that he actually has something emotional to give someone, something he's set up to give, something he can do to help someone just by being himself at them the way he always is in his relationships. I'M SORRY THIS IS A MESS, I should not post right now because I'm projecting over every single character. But, uh, I'm kind of into this pairing? If you hadn't noticed. But also the first thing, the threesome of mutually unable to sleep because of painful war/assassin memories? THAT TOO. Jesus this movie just caters to all my kinks.

Anyway, yeah, porn would help. I will do my best to pay it forward when I'm sane again.

also can I just note, it feels full circle in a really WEIRD way to be talking about porn involving a comics character named Bruce. Thank god none of the other names overlap, I would be too confused to function.

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I don't have a whole lot of Thor/Loki recs (there's TONS out there, I just haven't read most of it; I know Astolat wrote a bunch of it), but I've been bookmarking my favorite reads as I dive into the fandom on AO3: http://archiveofourown.org/users/Sinope/bookmarks

(And I have Clint/Phil post-death ghost-in-the-machine D/s fic 3500 words along, wtf, but it's not done yet.)

Oh, and if you want TRULY EPIC combinations of violence, angst, and total schmoop, with Loki being irredeemable and godly, I just finished and loved "Disclosures": http://archiveofourown.org/works/349605. Even though it's one of the fics written pre-film and therefore, as its tag says, "Jossed By Joss Himself."

THANK YOU, these links were needed <3

if you find any steve/clint/natasha please link to it. because damn that'd be pretty. (they're soldiers! together! and the broken bits are really similar on all of them. but they can patch each other up. there would be so much forced cuddling for the other person's own good.)

YES. I really believe they could be a functional threesome. And I think it would mesh well with my need for any and every Steve/anyone story to include Steve/Bucky backstory. BECAUSE. THEIR LOVE. I feel like Natasha and Clint could both understand that and fill that space for him in some way.