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So it is looking like I will likely have a job very soon--although it's not a sure thing yet--but I still feel kind of blah. I'm less than halfway through pulling clips for the next vid--and actually making that vid is all I feel like doing at the moment, but I hit some kind of rage saturation point and the thought of re-exposing myself to more and more of that show unless I'm in the process of recontextualizing it--even just going through frame by frame with the sound off--makes me so tired.

idkkkkk, I've just been tired and I got up SO early today to get the car fixed, and I've gotten so out of the habit of cooking and so reluctant to start again that I let my collard greens go bad in the fridge so I will not have any to eat tonight, and I just feel very flat. Incapable, like my limbs are all tangled together and I can't move them.

I think tonight I will read more of that always-a-girl HTTYD fic, that was making me happy. Perhaps I will post about it.

five hours later: ...OR I could suck it up and pull another ~75 clips, that also works? I don't understand my brain even a little bit.