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some_stars) wrote2011-09-12 04:12 am
some_stars) wrote2011-09-12 04:12 am
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Wow, okay, I think I've officially been watching too much TV lately--switched over to White Collar, Leverage is next in line and I have a meaning-to-get-around-to queue of at least half a dozen more shows built up but I may not, in fact, get around to them because after eight straight days of marathoning recent mainstream American TV, I just sustained my ten billionth microaggression and it actually made me start crying. Well, some of them have been a bit more than micro, but mostly it's just the endless endless stream of little little things and I can't take it anymore.
I hit a point like this a few years ago about watching TV live, because the commercials just became too painful, and now apparently the shows are as well. And actually, one of them was Doctor Who so scratch the 'American' bit. Considering that television is my life and my one hobby, to which I go to escape actual life, I think it's really fucking unfair that I'm apparently growing less able to cope with this shit as time goes on. Although of course there's also the fact that it's getting worse thanks to the many joys of backlash. But basically, I want my fucking hobby back, and I want it to stop calling only the female FBI agents by their first names. (That would be the final tiny straw that started the tears, this time. There are about ten thousand things I could name, from various shows. But of course you all understand how microaggressions work.)
I just--I don't want to have to vet shows, you know? I want to hear about a premise or a relationship that appeals to me and hits my narrative buttons, and watch it and not be assaulted (including by persistent absence, which is often even worse; I've somehow acquired an incredibly inconvenient and unshakable habit of mentally genderswitching every single thing I watch--EVERYTHING, even every guest star--and calculating the odds that it would ever be produced or even considered). Also sometimes I sexuality-switch but I'm much more used to bitter disappointment on that front. And I don't want to have to settle for a show with a premise I'm less excited about or less appealing writing or fewer character and relationship archetypes that I love, or less or more of anything, because it's less sexist. That is a shitty choice. I just want to watch TV and participate in fandom and not feel like this, and it's never--it's getting worse. I'm never going to get what I want.
I hit a point like this a few years ago about watching TV live, because the commercials just became too painful, and now apparently the shows are as well. And actually, one of them was Doctor Who so scratch the 'American' bit. Considering that television is my life and my one hobby, to which I go to escape actual life, I think it's really fucking unfair that I'm apparently growing less able to cope with this shit as time goes on. Although of course there's also the fact that it's getting worse thanks to the many joys of backlash. But basically, I want my fucking hobby back, and I want it to stop calling only the female FBI agents by their first names. (That would be the final tiny straw that started the tears, this time. There are about ten thousand things I could name, from various shows. But of course you all understand how microaggressions work.)
I just--I don't want to have to vet shows, you know? I want to hear about a premise or a relationship that appeals to me and hits my narrative buttons, and watch it and not be assaulted (including by persistent absence, which is often even worse; I've somehow acquired an incredibly inconvenient and unshakable habit of mentally genderswitching every single thing I watch--EVERYTHING, even every guest star--and calculating the odds that it would ever be produced or even considered). Also sometimes I sexuality-switch but I'm much more used to bitter disappointment on that front. And I don't want to have to settle for a show with a premise I'm less excited about or less appealing writing or fewer character and relationship archetypes that I love, or less or more of anything, because it's less sexist. That is a shitty choice. I just want to watch TV and participate in fandom and not feel like this, and it's never--it's getting worse. I'm never going to get what I want.
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I'm tired of settling for shows, too. I know I have to, that there is no perfect thing, but it's so hard to do.
Anyway. I hear you, and I hope you can find a way to have your hobby back.
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I may have spoken slightly too soon though because I switched to Leverage today (I'm kind of doing nothing else at all right now for...various reasons) and already it's making me feel better. I'm sure the fandom will hurt me, since that seems to be the way of things--I actually tried White Collar right after Psych because, really depressingly, I knew what I'd want out of that show would be exactly the white dudes pairing fandom was going to offer me--but right now I'm just watching the DVDs and soothing myself with Parker and Hardison and Sophie and Eliot. (Nate is at the "mild fondness" stage so far.) I've watched three episodes and there have been maybe two flinch moments total, and very small ones. HOORAY.