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Aug. 26th, 2024 01:54 pmso, hi, i have almost entirely abandoned dreamwidth (although when i get back into perfume again i will return) but i felt like i should make a post about how i'm better now because, that happened. after TMS and two rounds of IV ketamine with zero improvement i tried a new medication, because Why Not, and six weeks later my PHQ9 had gone from 21 to 3. and it's STAYED there for three months now. depression over.
i've been having good sex, reading books, getting high WAY less, exercising and actually feeling endorphins from it, drastically reducing my impulse shopping, making rewarding emotional in person connections, getting back into a new fandom with the passion i used to feel, and also: writing. and as of last week, vidding, and all this despite some Major challenges (mom health crisis leading into mom dementia crisis, hurricane with extended outages). i've asked to go up another five hours a week at work. i'm just.....better. it's deeply fucking weird. i'd given up hope literal years ago.
so, apparently, that can happen, and it happened to me. which is pretty cool.
(the medication is Auvelity, the fandom is Deadpool, i've written three fics so far that have received a wildly and kind of frighteningly good reception, and also made a new fandom friend/writing buddy in a way i haven't since 2020 and before that 2013)
i've been having good sex, reading books, getting high WAY less, exercising and actually feeling endorphins from it, drastically reducing my impulse shopping, making rewarding emotional in person connections, getting back into a new fandom with the passion i used to feel, and also: writing. and as of last week, vidding, and all this despite some Major challenges (mom health crisis leading into mom dementia crisis, hurricane with extended outages). i've asked to go up another five hours a week at work. i'm just.....better. it's deeply fucking weird. i'd given up hope literal years ago.
so, apparently, that can happen, and it happened to me. which is pretty cool.
(the medication is Auvelity, the fandom is Deadpool, i've written three fics so far that have received a wildly and kind of frighteningly good reception, and also made a new fandom friend/writing buddy in a way i haven't since 2020 and before that 2013)
