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had my first ketamine appointment at the higher dose this morning...it hits HARD, i was lying down and vibing and also holding on for dear life. but i only threw up a little bit and i did not pee myself so i'm counting it a success. i was also informed that sometimes people who don't respond to the nasal spray still respond well to the IV infusion so we're holding that in reserve. and my wrist is getting better, and i'm going out tonight, so. basically a good day, i think. god i hope the ketamine works this time.