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Oh nooooo why did I think it was a good idea to watch a Kings vid and rewatch a couple scenes, WHY, did I not remember the CRUSHING PAIN? It's weird, I'm not usually this intensely bothered by fictional characters' pain, but it was only a few months ago I went through this the first time. I guess I forgot that no, really, for real, it actually disturbs me and not in the fun "oh the tragedy, all the feels" way. THAT SHOW. One day I'll make my vid and be done with it. One day when I am more emotionally stable. So...never, then.