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Making notes on this story I'm attempting to write but am too jittery and wired and brittle to actually write at the moment, and I got down one sentence about the sex scene and then followed it with, "but anyway primarily, just, so much kissing and holding, SO MUCH." I seem to be incapable anymore of sex scenes that aren't tender and loving and people hold each other in their arms and kiss and cry. I mean, I try to own my kinks, but this is seriously all I do anymore. Oh well, I suppose there are worse ruts to be in.