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fifty frenchmen can't be wrong ([personal profile] some_stars) wrote2015-08-07 12:01 am

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hi! i'm alive. i'm alive on tumblr mostly, and also twitter but that's locked and i suspect of very little interest to anyone. i'm back in texas with nothing to show for the past two years except half a degree that i'll never finish, a semester of student teaching in a state i'll never live in again, two pairs of winter boots and a gorgeous tailored wool coat i can no longer wear, an even deeper hatred for gigantic gulf coast roaches, and the absence of most of my books because i couldn't get everything mailed back in time. my life is a fiery ruin, i'm fairly certain i've developed a substance abuse problem, i'm reading a lot of shitty ff.n fic for a show that went off the air thirteen years ago, and i'm probably going to spend my 31st birthday inducing seizures in my brain. but at least the sun won't be setting at 4 PM this winter, so i guess that's a plus.

anyway i'm not returning to DW or anything (although i still read my flist every day), just...you know. i'm alive, more or less. i hope you are also alive, and at least slightly less miserable than me.

(edited to add: the link to my tumblr is in my profile but please be warned it contains a lot of triggery mental illness content (depression, suicide, self harm, substance abuse). it's pretty much all tagged but that only works if you see the posts on your dash and you have some kind of tumblr blacklist app installed, so if you don't, please take care/check the "about" page first.)
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[personal profile] minoanmiss 2015-08-07 05:32 am (UTC)(link)
Hello, brighteyes. Also still alive.
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[personal profile] sapote 2015-08-07 11:59 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry things are so shit right now. Good luck with ECT. I'm glad to hear you're here.
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[personal profile] minim_calibre 2015-08-07 08:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Hey, you! (I mean, I see you all the time on Tumblr, but it's good to see you here, too.)

The ECT's worked really well for a couple of my friends. I hope it works well for you, and that you've got plenty of support while you're actually in the process.
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[personal profile] blacksquirrel 2015-08-08 03:23 pm (UTC)(link)
~waves~ Also still alove, just poking my nose back into lj/dw. So sorry things are a mess right now..
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[personal profile] sasha_feather 2015-08-08 09:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Thinking of you!
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[personal profile] weaver 2015-08-09 10:30 am (UTC)(link)
HELLO. i am glad you are alive, even in spite of fiery ruins. i have been in the fiery ruin place and it's absolutely awful and i'm sorry you're there now, and i hope you get to the not in a fiery ruin place before too much time passes. if it helps, i did. but it sucked. i'm going to go follow your tumblr so i can continue to be glad you're alive. x
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[personal profile] phosfate 2015-08-10 01:13 pm (UTC)(link)
*wavewave*

Hey lc to the fruity

(Anonymous) 2015-09-25 05:13 am (UTC)(link)
Livejournal reminds me that your birthday happens - still. Le wow.
Still think of you and wish my car could survive a trip to tx.
love always, for what it is worth from a dusty-ruin life!
-shan from, like, aol days
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[personal profile] rydra_wong 2015-10-18 06:47 pm (UTC)(link)
*waves hello*

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